Choices

I’m still working on my class that gives me writing prompts right now and I was able to choose from a few options before writing this and the word “Choice” was one of them….but so was “Regret”. I felt kind of torn between the two subjects, because I’m one of those people who have always wanted to live without any regret. I think it’s all a manner of perspective, though, because I don’t feel like I live with any regret, but I know that I have made many wrong choices in just a short amount of life that I’ve had so far.

I have a list of things in my head that are just choices that I could have done differently like:

  1. I should have taken more time on myself in college and travelled more.
  2. I should have kept up with my exercise so that I wouldn’t have gained so much weight now.
  3. I probably should have majored in something that would make me more money.

The thing is, I don’t regret any of my choices, but I wonder how things would have gone if I’d done something differently. While I can’t change my past, I use those choices to learn and grow from so that I can make more informed decisions now. I don’t hold regret because that isn’t how you learn from life. That’s how you get stuck in a constant, negative cycle that is damn near impossible to break. Maybe I should have taken more time for myself in college, but I had some good experiences with my partner and now I have an understanding husband who does allow me any space I need for myself. I definitely should have kept up with health and fitness while in my earlier 20’s, but I’m now learning how to take care of a body going into it’s 3rd decade…so maybe things are a little different and I’m open for the challenge. As for the last one, I probably could have majored in some sort of engineering or computer science degree, but I don’t think I would have enjoyed my college experience at all. I know I’m going to get disappointed or get a negative outcome on occasion…but as long as I can learn and grow from any mistakes or wrong choices, I think life will go on.

Here’s to hoping everyone is having a fantastic Sunday!

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